In the spirit of coordinating brain and mouth:
Hey, do you know how hard that is?
My conundrum is as follows:
Brilliant ideas often flow through the fantastical labyrinth that is my mind. But somewhere in the process of verbalization, somewhere between thought and speech, they become muddled. Somehow, my thoughts, when rules of grammar, syntax, and vocabulary are applied, come out as whimsical ideas that have no substance. Let's say that I am this amazingly talented quarterback... I don't know, say, Tom Brady. (That's not too much of a stretch now, is it?) And I've firmly decided in my mind to throw a perfectly placed 50 yard pass to one excellent receiver (let's say, Randy Moss). But somewhere between that decision and the action to make it come to life, things get caught in some sort of mind-storm. My muscles decide to follow a different path, and instead of reaching the intended, the ball ends up about 48 yards shy of Randy, and into the hands of Laurence Maroney. Now, Maroney is, indeed, an excellent running back, but he is not, alas, a receiver. So while Moss is at the five yard line, completely open, Maroney will now have to fight to reach the end zone. The goal is to get the ball to the end zone. While both Moss and Maroney are capable, the effort exhorted with each situation is drastically different. And there is a greater chance that Maroney cannot break through those defensive lines, and thus, the ball is not delivered to the end zone.
Do we see, now, what I am trying to say? If you don't, it only further cements the point I'm trying to make. I find that people have an immensely difficult time with understanding the things I say. When it is merely unimportant speech, I'm more apt to convey those thoughts accurately. But when something is of great importance to me, when I feel passionate about it, words fail me. Not words, exactly, more like... the English language. I feel that if I knew every language on earth, I would have no problem relaying with speech the musings of my mind. But I suppose in that case, I would most likely use many different languages in one sentence, thus, confusing my listener even more. Ah, here's a better would-be solution: If my thoughts would just write themselves. Or maybe... I feel like if my hands could write or type at the speed of my own thoughts, I'd be in the clear. But we would still have the problem of verbal communication. Because to speak as fast as my thoughts occur, well, do I need to go into the trouble that would cause?
Time for some real life application:
I've recently taken to writing a story. I've had this story implanted and playing in my mind for... well, at least a year now. When my mind drifts off and is not involved with real situational thoughts, it writes my story. But the moment I try to take that story out of my brain and place it into this computer, or onto paper... Well, try this: Try to envision your thoughts. Take your thoughts, make them into something tangible, floating in your skull. Got it? Now, imagine that all those thoughts simultaneously make a mad dash to the exit of your head. You've got quite a jumble on your hands now don't you? Exactly what it feels like every time I try to write something worth while. Some thoughts start to break the barrier, but their not sequentially accurate.
Another IRL application? Trying to compose the above paragraph describing my problem, while battling it at the same time.
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2 comments:
wow, Mal, that was crazy...good crazy though...cause i know that feeling...but i don't think i could have written it like you...Nic job!
Thank you very kindly. ;]
It took me forever to get those paragraphs out. Ha!
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